thoughtshowerings

Today's post is a non-emotive post that sounds like one. Yesterday as I was about to go to bed, a random thought struck me in my head. I suddenly think about how my parents, being young once, had their own set of dreams and goals that they wanted to pursue. I am 21 for quite some time now. I have my own set of directions to go, where I want to move. I have my own dreams, interests to follow and although I do not have a concrete plan for my future, at least I know what I want now, currently. So I try to navigate myself towards these goals that I have set out for myself. I am very sure that my parents similarly had their own goals that they were moving towards to when they were 21. The kind of lifestyle they wanted to lead, what they wanted to do for a living and so on. So, (my own postulation) they were more or less on their individual paths until they met each other and decided to settle down. Suddenly, all their own visions and dreams sort of melted away to give in to th...

Relationships The older I get, the more I realise that relationships play a huge huge role in our lives. Romantically wise, platonic or family wise, we all need a fair share of all three I suppose. Suddenly people left right center behind and sideways break up, patch up, found someone to attach themselves to. Some friendship sours, some drifts, new ones forged and others strengthen. Many others remained in an awkward limbo. Priorities (I seriously can never learn how to spell this word) seems to change with age. At teenage years, the thing you probably cared most in the world was probably whether you had friends that you could relate closely to. A little further down the road, you probably have a group of people who you know will definitely be there for you no matter what happens. Then you probably might be on the look out for potential mates. And so on and so forth. Been hearing some stuffs in the recent weeks. Have to say I was pretty disappointed. But yet at th...

The Art of making Friends. ( and perhaps how to maintain the relationship ) University opens a whole new world, new, foreign people ambush you almost everyday. You either meet them at lectures, tutorials, or perhaps lab sessions or practicals. Possibly, the most polite or socially correct thing to do is then to make an attempt, feeble or not, entirely depends on your mood, for a small talk. From there and then on, you might become best buddies, or just normal friends. Depends entirely on your chemistry with the person. Sometimes I feel that it is really chemistry that brings people together. That first impression that person sends you, when you guys talk, if it feels "right". If that person belongs on the same wave length as you do. Some people while being unbelievably nice, like I have met, just dont function on the same frequency as I do. Awkward silences push their way through us, filling up the voids. Bringing uneasiness. Others, when met for the time, click i...

Mid June : Temperature creeps steadily up End June : Humidity levels rises around the island, skin feels oddly sticky all the time Start July : Its starting to burn Now : Unbelievably, blisteringly hot Which also signifies one thing - University's finally starting for some of us who have waited for almost 3 years. That thought alone is, undoubtedly scary. Almost 3 years of not processing thoughts in a logical, sequential way. Of not looking at problems in another angle, thinking about possibilities of solving the targeted problem. Of not feeling the stress of exams. Of not churning out essays after essays on demand. Of not practising hand writing. It also marks a total character change for the some of us. Like myself. I suddenly feel less prone to mingle around, the intuition to get to know more people lessens. There is not a compelling urge to get to understand new people on a deeper, more personal basis within me. Knowing new people has become sort of a chore for me. To quote a f...

《冷血夺命案-1》 冬天的来临，他的世界变得黯然，因为色彩全被一尘尘的雪花覆盖。 雪花是那么的渺小，那么的脆弱，那么的美丽，一但接触到微微的温度就由晶体融化成为水，微量的毫米瞬间蒸发，化为气体。 但它却能使他的世界淡化，使他的世界寒冷，使他的感官迟钝，不再灵敏。 冬天时他都窝在家里头，十分慵懒，只有肚子饿得呱呱叫才勉强寻食。离开有他体温的沙发，被刺骨的寒气包围，很不是滋味。 能挨过十几个严冬，算是他命大，有或者是因为他性格顽固，倔强，与人，与事，甚至与物他都要胜利。 但这个冬天却和以往的不一样，不再是迷迷糊糊，在半醒半睡之间徘徊度过。 这个冬天的他，特别警惕，特别灵敏。在万物都开始沉睡时，他却十分清醒，好像每片落地的雪花都逃不过他的双眼。脚步声被皑皑的大雪消声掉，但他似乎还能分辨出人与畜牲的差别。 这个转变犹如从宅男脱蚕变成为职业杀手。 或许他就真的有杀人的动机？

自从服完兵役后，不知道什么缘故我便开始非常积极的运动。 开始时，纯粹是为了消磨手上多余的时间。要不然，没工作，没书读，很快发闷，脑子发霉。 中午时会溜到附近的游泳池痛快的游泳。周日午间的泳池人烟稀少，游起来时特别爽快。 感觉好像我包下了泳池，哈哈。想象一下超级有钱，超级奢侈的生活方式。总会觉得自己游得很快， 好像鲨鱼似的，背鳍静悄悄地划出水面。觉得自己好危险，很有 “say”。哈哈。 总之，周日午间游泳我最开心！ 渐渐地，从消磨时间，我的午间游泳时断变成了自我挑战的运动，我尽量游得快些，游多一点，游久一点。就这样慢慢地变成了一项运动。挺不错地，以前膝盖疼的地方现在没那么疼，好像有好很多。 再来就是跑步。 我猜我会开始跑步是因为当快要服完兵役时，I still had some army credits leftover, not wanting to waste it, I went to buy a new pair of cool yellow streaked mizunos from e-mart! Best ORD buy ever. 有新鞋，一定会穿吗对不对？要不然辜负了新鞋，买了就丢在一旁，它会很惧丧。 另外一个原因是因为我本来要和几位兵营的“好哥儿们”参加一年一度的 Men's Health Urbanathlon. Who knew these bastards, after using all the flowery language and their incessant persuading to make me join, pulled out without even telling me. No replies to my smses or facebook msges. I was livid. And could do nothing. I already paid for it. Might as well train and run for it. It wasnt cheap by the way. 就这样，我便开始跑步了。几乎每天都有跑步，如果没跑就会到泳池游泳。 慢慢地，从原本感到是一种厌烦，费劲的东西变成了一种习惯。 再由习惯转换成一种享受，好像隔两三天没浑身出汗就会觉得自己很慵懒，很不健康似的。觉得自己快要肥死...

Here's an interesting question I have. If you can re-plan your life, if you can re-live it, with all possible resources given, financially or not. How would you choose to live it? What job would you have? Where would you live? What would you do in your spare time? I often make these little plans at the back of my head when I have nothing to do. Like on a hot night where I cannot seem to get to sleep no matter what position I adopt. On my tummy, on my side, kneeling, various exotic poses. So I think about all these plans I have. Drawing them out in my head, down to the minute details. Who knows? Maybe it will come true? So here's roughly how my "alternate" life goes. 1) I will want to open a restaurant/eatery/bistro in the sea. Like a glass house eatery that has a wooden boardwalk that extends from the beach to the sea. Its glass everywhere, from walls to the ceilings to the flooring. 2) It will have an indoor and outdoor dining option. Outdoor: From the glass hut, yo...