thoughtshowerings

This week hasnt been good, for my mental health at least. 1) Went out dinner with my BMT mates. Chatted and got to know how's everyone progressed so far two years on: A - Is on USP AL - Is going to UCLA to do Law S - Is going to Imperial to do Chemistry on a A*Star scholarship C - Is currently in Medical School J - Is on a bond free scholarship from Shanghai to do Chinese at Fudan U. D - Is going to do Medicine overseas So yes, I feel darn puny and small and dumb sitting with all of them. Choking me with all that smartness and effortless-ness. As well as talking about whether they should change their course to like Law or Medicine so that they can earn more money. I truly feel dumb. 2) Friend W, has unbelievably, signed on. Its a "she" by the way. Havent talked to her since after primary school. Stalked her on FB. haha. It gets pretty bored in office sometimes. She leads such a colourful life, visiting Egypt to see pyramids, going to Iceland to see the Northern Lights ...

Realized its been quite some time since I logged in an entry. Got to maintain my writings, not to let my writing skills degenerate! Started work already, how I got it was quite an interesting story. But that is for another time. I did not realize working was so tiring! Doing mostly typing, seated, fully air-conditioned and yet, I still feel drained. Snoozing while standing on the train, snoozing in front of my computer, thinking of my bed while having dinner. Guess I'm still not adjusted to this lifestyle yet, as opposed to sleeping till I wake up naturally. Still feeling slightly awkward during lunches, meetings and what nots. They seem friendly and distant at the same time, its confusing me. Wished there were more people around my age there in the office to balance out. I feel so young, so immature, so noob . Not a lot of relevant topics whatsoever with them. But then again, it feeds me. So I guess that is the trade off? But it saps time off from myself. No time to enjoy leisure...