thoughtshowerings

最近不知道怎么了，可能是在兵营太久了，脑里开始想起与朋友度过的时光。 由其是听到关于感情，友情的歌曲，脑袋播放与朋友度过的片段。 啊~ 好怀念！好想永远都留在那片刻。。。笑声，欢呼和玩乐！ 嗯，感觉好像有一大帮人在背后挺着我，什么事都能够完成，也不管天高地厚。 随身听的耳机插入耳腔，音乐大声得整个人好像暂时与世隔绝。再加上晚霞，橘黄色的云朵缠绕着深蓝的天空，回巢的鸟儿在树上吱吱叫， 更加能够让人勾起回忆。 吖！歌曲已播完，那只属于我个人空间的三分钟到了，应该是时候回到现实了！ 好让人陶醉的三分钟。

哇。。。 好久好久没上网blog了。。。 自从进兵之后就没有再写网上日记的习惯，以前的那股匆动，那种想有如瀑布倾泻的心情以今不再有了。今天不懂怎麽，忽然想用华文来描写感受。 今天标题就是 重逢 。 重逢，掺杂着尴尬，勇气和回忆。 重逢，就有如文章的起承转和一样。 起；是当你在一次巧遇之下和你多年不见的友朋相逢。这完全是在你最想不到的状况之下发生的。  在人群当中穿梭，你忽然在眼角看到一个熟悉的脸孔。好像在那里曾经看过，脑里一直播放和那脸孔曾经度过的时光。但片段模糊不清，记忆好像层层彩色纱布包拢。 承；是当两人的目光对上，两人似忽知道他们是相识的。心跳开始不规律，脑里不断念这对方得名字。“啊，是他！” 而尴尬在这时会涌上心头，是相逢？是假装不认识？或许他没看到我? 要是他以不认得我了。。。  转；是当你或他鼓起勇气去和那熟悉的脸孔相逢。感觉好像是去实证莫件事，看看自己的记忆是不是正确。我本身觉得这是最难办到的一件事，也说不出理由，文字打不出来感觉吧。只有用“勇气”这两个字来形容。 和；是当两人都 “成功” 相逢。剩下的就只有回忆等待两人慢慢品尝。嗯，应该可以说是想喝壶好茶吧，从茶叶的迷人香味飘进鼻腔，到茶水在齿间留下丝丝清香和口里的干甜。品尝回忆就好像这种滋味。

Oh yes, I am supposed to be spending my every single ounce of energy and time studying, but apparently, like many things in life, its easier said than done. Its kind of dull, not to mention exceedingly dry, like keropok to face paragraphs after paragraphs of font 8 words from my books. What about the endless repetitions at reading and re-reading the same sentence.

This pretty much sums up what I'm feeling now I guess

WOOHOO! End of prelims! Gosh you have no idea how great it felt. Like your brain has been relieved of some sort of heavy load. Yeahhh. But the papers were insanely tough. Looking at the qestions, it didnt even looked like anything I had learnt for 2 years? what the heck. I think the best day that I had for a long long time, was yesterday. We went to sentosa and basically let our hair down and enjoed ourselves like no tomorrow. It had a really warm, fuzzy feeling, because this was the first time that Zhiyan and friends had joined us for an outing. Its was rather heart warming(no, not because of the sun and the sun-tanning oil) and it made my day. It then suddenly struck me that friends largely made up a part of our lives. Imagine what it'll be like if one had no friends. How cold your world would be! People would just nothing but faceless mannequins in your life, transitions in your seemingly long but short life. Thats why i cant fully understand people who are solitary in nature.  ...

Its the period where life sort of takes a backseat. Life decided to simply walk out on me, leaving no instructions on what I am supposed to do without it, no small yellow post-it notes that bear contrasting black pen marks saying "look here" or anything like that. Its like life stopped me from visiting it, it hung a plain white sign embellished with words "Do Not Disturb" outside the mahogany wooden door knob. Life left me. =( ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ On the side note, I am quite amazed how easily human mind (or at least mine) gave in to cognitive and physical needs. Only yesterday, I was feeling absolutely drained and sucked dry of all essence. I tried my very best ( I think) to remain awake after dinner, but my whole body felt so weak, so limp that I simply could not even my eyes fully. My mind was engulfed with the thought that I must get sleep at all costs. It did not even consider the repe...

Alas! Just when one thinks that the grueling, essence sucking, brain devouring MYCTs are over and we, as free beings are allowed to roam the free earth, BOOM. The endless (may I add to highlight the severity) onslaught of twisted and foul remedials sink in. Everyday is a constant losing battle between revision packages and me. But remedials aside, lately, I think I have began to develop a nasty habit of forming "what ifs" situations in my head. "What if I were 1oo more times better looking?" "What if I were smarter?" "What if I exuded more charm?" And really silly and fictional thoughts. Which just makes me feel worse about myself. I think its kinda dangerous to develop such mentality, because it just makes me feel less and less confident about myself. Alright. I must stop all these negativity. I must channel all these negativity into action, action against the onslaught of twisted remedials! On the other hand, my muscles are growing! To put it i...