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Kicking a habit

-Kicking a habit, particularly, a bad one-

Kicking a bad habit, particularly a bad is extremely difficult. Why?

1) It must feel quite good, like generate some sort of instant gratification, small in its way; but because you can get away with it, I suppose you automatically link it with convenience, and how much trouble it will bring you should you correct it.

2) Procrastination, the second biggest contributor to not kicking a bad habit effectively. We always think to ourselves, "oh, never mind, I think I'll see to that tomorrow" or " I wish I had the time today, but I'm just so tired! I've got other things to do, maybe I'll shelve it for tomorrow". You see, that's the problem right there!
Tomorrow just doesnt seem to come at all!

3) Its seems like a minor problem at first, like easily rid off, until you realise its magnitude, its deep rootedness. Not correcting it in its early stages, it anchors deep right in your very core.

I guess I always knew the reasons, but refused to identify them. So I think recognizing and acknowledging them is the first step to kicking a bad habit, no?

I would tell myself, "No, Si Aun, you cannot ______, it isn't good for you at all" repeatedly and over and over again. Giving myself reasons, justifications to prove to myself that doing the above mentioned activity is not beneficial to me.

Over time, I really began to feel that way, that doing ______ was bad for me, I would automatically reject doing the aforementioned action or activity.

You see, I think that habits, especially bad ones, are necessary at all.
But as why we always do them, I have no idea, its like second nature. Like cracking fingers, or adjusting your hair in presence of a reflective surface.

Just suddenly felt like talking about it... *shrugs

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