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I'm back from Nepal~

I'm back from Nepal!

Finally, after two weeks of hellish trekking across the entire Everest Region (Khumbu), I return back to Singapore. And throughout this trip, I have grown to realized many things.

1) I know who are most dearest to me. These group of people and few individuals - their faces flit in and out of my mind unknowingly throughout the journey. I am truly thankful for their accompaniment mentally through the journey. The journey definitely has not been easy, it has not been even difficult. Using "difficult" would be undermining the sheer mental and physical demands of this journey.
My family has been the Number One supporting mental pillar. Never have I felt a greater need and urgency to reflect and recall upon their faces to help me push through when I really feel like giving up.
All those seismic-proportion sized headaches, the indescribable fatigue, general pain, periods of wild vomiting and violent diarrhoea, they, my family came through strong and clear, and for that I am truly, and never enough, thankful for that.

2) And it is also through this trip that I realised that who were most important to me in life. I will want to spend more time with them :)

3) I thought I might have found some answers, but then again, no. Its almost like as though the answers I thought I was looking for were under a rock, all I had to do was to turn them around and, volia~. But, to my dismay, none of the rocks I overturned contained the answers. Okay, maybe I was not looking for answers, maybe I was looking for direction? For confirmation? For assurance? For something tangible?

4) I thought about faith and religion on this trip as well, since majority of Nepalese practices Hinduism, or rather a localized version of it with strong linkages to Buddhism. Well, I would say I still have not reached a desirable answer. Which I strongly suspect is because I do not have a specific question in mind, hence the unsatisfactory answers. I dont know. Religion and faith, necessity? Do I need them to find what I need in life?

5) I think about how "unfair" life is for every single person on Earth. How people in the country suffer and teared on more than one occasion. But then afterwards, I felt silly. I cant tear for every man on this planet can I? And then I remembered what a friend said, she wanted to volunteer at some orphanage, I shall personally see that we both carry out this wish. I feel very inspired to start with local communities. Shall talk to her tonight! Excited.

6) I learn more about basic human-to-human interaction, observed some pretty interesting behaviour. Its like I'm some scientist watching a large group of people/individuals interact and then I silently make notes in my head for future research. But through this I learnt many things that I find applicable for myself in everyday life, how to handle different people. Aaaaand it confirmed my ability of predicting behaviours of people whom I've just met. I'm usually quite good at forming characteristics of people I've just met and they are usually quite close to who they really are when I get to know them on a deeper level. *up-turned-nose* hahahaahah. self-praise is really no praise, people say.

7) Himalayan sights are really breath-taking.

And that concludes this post. I love my family and friends :)

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