Skip to main content

Work is so tiring!

Realized its been quite some time since I logged in an entry.
Got to maintain my writings, not to let my writing skills degenerate!

Started work already, how I got it was quite an interesting story. But that is for another time.
I did not realize working was so tiring! Doing mostly typing, seated, fully air-conditioned and yet, I still feel drained.

Snoozing while standing on the train, snoozing in front of my computer, thinking of my bed while having dinner.

Guess I'm still not adjusted to this lifestyle yet, as opposed to sleeping till I wake up naturally.

Still feeling slightly awkward during lunches, meetings and what nots. They seem friendly and distant at the same time, its confusing me.

Wished there were more people around my age there in the office to balance out. I feel so young, so immature, so noob. Not a lot of relevant topics whatsoever with them.

But then again, it feeds me. So I guess that is the trade off?

But it saps time off from myself.
No time to enjoy leisurely jogs at 6pm.
No time to enjoy swims in the middle of the day where the pool's almost deserted, making me feel highly important and exclusive.

Instead I rush, like rush kind of rush home to change into running gear for a short run. By then it would already be around 7.30pm? And so so so exhausted from work, I can hardly run half my distance I normally do.

And if I fancy a swim, it'll be *insert expletive of choice* crowded at the public pools with kids learning swimming, losers that dont want to swim but want to take up lanes. More losers that swim the breadth of the pool rather than the length, ignoring any swimmers(like me) that are doing laps length-wise. You can swim breadth for all I care, but do you have to cut into my lane knowing that I am approaching you? Do you think your stubby legs, flabby arms and 2 sizes smaller swimming trunks can propel you 100 knots in the water darling? NO. FAT ASS, GET OUT OF MY WAY. my major peeve.

So yes. That ends my work life chronicles.

School's re-open for the girls, the guys ORD happily. Life's pretty much returned back to normal.

Past problems still unresolved.
New problems developed.
Feelings change.
New ties forged, old ones strengthened, some slipped while others tightened.

Popular posts from this blog

Mentalist

* Mentalist * Sunshine bursts through dull grey-hued clouds, its rays filtering down onto Kyle's face. He wrinkled his eyes in response, long tanned fingers shield them. He never liked such dreamy situations, the sun kissing the endless plains, glades of wildflower dot the country side. He thought that such scenarios only served to conceal what was bad inside everyone. Yes, he believed that there resided a little evil, a touch of cruelty, a hint of darkness within everyone. In fact, he relished acts, big or small, of twisted intentions. He always knew he was "strange" as put it by people who knew him. Unique, was what he rather be termed, perhaps bordering on "superior". Those comments didnt affect him, all they did was to consolidate the unrefutable fact that Kyle enjoyed in watching people suffer, writhe in pain, bathed in loneliness. You see, Kyle has a special gift. At first he thought that it was just strokes of coincidences, but soon the frequencies of th...

Feeling jealous and dumb.

This week hasnt been good, for my mental health at least. 1) Went out dinner with my BMT mates. Chatted and got to know how's everyone progressed so far two years on: A - Is on USP AL - Is going to UCLA to do Law S - Is going to Imperial to do Chemistry on a A*Star scholarship C - Is currently in Medical School J - Is on a bond free scholarship from Shanghai to do Chinese at Fudan U. D - Is going to do Medicine overseas So yes, I feel darn puny and small and dumb sitting with all of them. Choking me with all that smartness and effortless-ness. As well as talking about whether they should change their course to like Law or Medicine so that they can earn more money. I truly feel dumb. 2) Friend W, has unbelievably, signed on. Its a "she" by the way. Havent talked to her since after primary school. Stalked her on FB. haha. It gets pretty bored in office sometimes. She leads such a colourful life, visiting Egypt to see pyramids, going to Iceland to see the Northern Lights ...

New Semester

Hi, I'm back, after what seems like an eternity. Its a new start to the academic year! I am conflicted. I am not sure whether to look forward to finishing school (at last!) or to feel a sudden emptiness about school ending. (What? Already?) No doubt, school has been kind to me, it has let me learn many things, academically or otherwise. Its great seeing and experimenting with different styles of working with people, I think that's the part I like most about school. Other than that, school feels like a cocoon of warmth and protection, as though nothing really bad could possibly happen. I mean, its a huge playground for youths to connect and try out and experiment with identity, its where you really test out which identity you want to adopt when you finally step out into the world right? But at the same time, I'm really eager to step out and prove my worth, the saying " The world is your Oyster" is not for nothing you know. So I'm feeling increasingly ...