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so many deaths :x

生,老,病, 死。

并不是每个人都会通过这个程序从诞生到死亡度过他的一生。
每个阶段都会有人离去,“搭一辆直通车”通往天国,跳过莫些阶段。

但死亡这个“终站”, 大家都会到达。我觉得没有所谓的早或晚到终站吧。

I think there is only whether you had any regrets before you left. But by then, it would not have mattered, would it? Since it would have already been physically impossible to correct these regrets.

The phrase "live without regrets", is a retarded phrase. If anyone could do that, then there would not be any sorrows left. Think about it. Who can say that they can live fully without ever having a single regret? What if you died tomorrow? All the things you ever wanted to do and dreams you were working towards all gone. But the thing is, you would never have expected death to come so soon and sudden, would you?

Always shelving things for "next time", or because you were "busy" with other things. You've really got no one to put the blame on but yourself, isnt it? You fully understand the meaning of the phrase, and of course know how to do those things you've shelved out because you were "busy", but whether you do put your thoughts into concrete actions is a wholly separate thing.

In the end, those things you've "always wanted to do" or on the "top of your list" arent really your priority, are they? Since you keep shelving them.

From the start of this year, I've experienced 3 deaths. Personally or indirectly connected. Big or small. Human or not. Deaths are deaths.
I'm starting to grow scared. Separation is a terrible feeling. Permanent separation infinitely worse.

Stay Strong peeps.

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