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Quitter?

I feel like a quitter :(

Mega disappointed with myself.
I have never stopped doing anything half way once I tell myself I have to complete it.
Only things like eating some super disgustingly vile tasting food puts me off half way.

Damn. I dont want to disappoint people so early in the year?
Maybe I'm just too concious of how people think of me? What's the difference between disappointing them now and later?

I try my best to make myself feel better, like saying things,mentally to myself of course.
Trying to make facts shine in my favour. But the truth is I still feel bad. Like really bad.

Not that I dont want to persevere on, I just dont think I can do it properly.
Am I falling into the "strawberry" category of youths? Major unhappiness.

Or maybe I'm just making a mountain out of a molehill?
I need to reflect asap. I am going for a run now.

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